The first poem I’ve shared for a while. Within the poem, an explanation of why it has become harder for me to write. Hopefully the writing will also help to fill the blank.
Blank spaces
After the realization, a blank space grew inside me.
Mainly it’s grey, though there are days when it darkens,
When it grows, the aching edges reach my throat,
I become silent and if I speak my voice feels like sandpaper,
The sound flat and hard, laughter an impossibility.
Mainly it lies quiet, but always conscious
Until some place, some person or situations stirs it.
I seek solitude, avoid the superficial, but also the digging too deep:
Noise and meaningless talk of nothings, shopping for unneeded things,
Meditating, writing poetry and getting really drunk.
Kampala, 2019